SEXY BACK

2007-07-28T20:50:00.001+08:00

you are too complicated.

and its not like, cool.

2007-07-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

ROFLMAO.

2007-07-18T11:57:00.000+08:00

so today's another day i skipped school.

on the surface its purely physically tired cos' of presentation night. in fact im not really that tired. actually it is to take another mental break.

however this time felt kinda different. maybe its my father who's at home or maybe im used to the feeling. i've no idea.

i got a surge of urge to go outside and have some fun but then i realized everyone's in school mugging like dogs now so there's no point for me to go alone. wanted to watch movie alone but this saturday i will be going out chilling so i want to save some cash for the better.

..

i want to start life anew.
so i shall change my blogskin/add.

2007-07-15T15:51:00.001+08:00

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

...

2007-07-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

what am i?

used.

2007-07-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

today's practically a no sch day for me.
just wanna find sometime to chill out and think of nothing.

nothing.

a day without school work.
a day without friends.
a day without worries.

for one day, i love this kinda life. suddenly everything is in your hands. i get to do whatever i want. i wanna cut my hair and tada its cut. i wanna go eastpoint to walk around and tada i went. i wanna watch HBO for few hours straight and tada its done.

it was careless. its highly enjoyable.
the taste of freedom..
is addictive.

for one day i dont have to listen to the mundane tutorials, don't have to sit in boring lecture theatres, dont have to lie around band room doing nothing, dont have to worry about mid year results.

just be me.
and do what i wanna do.
sounds cool.

but the many smses i receive today is enough to get me out of this addiction.
im a lucky guy to have so many concerned friends.
love you people.

2007-07-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

6 months passed by.
i wonder what i've done.

i realized life in dhs was so much better.
i miss those times.

jingwen clarissa ivy
katherine sheila peiqi
vanessa fengyi
kaikeng valerie xueling
joseph nigel bryan

i miss them all

and now, with new friends.
i tried to move on.
still trying.

2007-06-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

fuck it. fuck it.

2007-06-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

2007-06-14T18:42:00.001+08:00

TODAY'S MY BRO'S BDAY.
but nothing's special is really happening in fact.

Everyday doses of arcade and pooling is abit too much for a junior college teenager who is about to take the very important mid years that will affect the overall, hence H3 subject, hence scholarship, and hence future.

i really do not know my limits.
how about a clique barbeque somewhere soon? =D =D
that's when everyone's gone away and back in singapore.

a totally stressed up june. first time, in fact, for 17 years im mugging during the june holidays when it's like the time when we chill out together every single other day movie-ing and all shit. this time thanks to the midyears.

THANK YOU MID YEARS! YOU ARE SO GOING TO MAKE MY LIFE SO SCREWED FUCKING UP.

chemistry maths physics econs chemistry maths physics econs chemistry maths physics econs yay. im totally in love with mugging.

not.

2007-06-13T20:40:00.000+08:00

i feel happy seeing u all together without feeling left out.
i've got over it, finally.

some people left, but lucky there are people who take in their place and stand beside you.
the warmth which i used to feel, is coming back to me.

i pray for ur everlasting friendship.
a friendship that doesnt include me.

2007-06-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

i wanted to upload pictures, BUT, the stupid nokia cable just sucks big time. cant be bothered anymore.

VJ GYO.

bisibashi2 hasnt been that fun without four freaks working together and self highing in front of the whole world. and getting their pictures taken for breaking the high scores continuously.

today's study session might not be that efficient but in this way tml's will be much better. lol always look on the bright side of life.

2007-06-10T09:16:00.000+08:00

online chat with valerie has indeed stirred up some usual anti emotions.

why are people from our batch who are in dhp and no longer in band considered as "not alumni, not band member, not here and not there"? i seriously do find it weird. and people who are still in band and in their year5s are considered as alumni? this is ironic. it has been portrayed that people who have left band in year5s are of traitors to the band and have been banned from playing.

i hate dhs band politics. and yet even after i left it still keep appearing.
and why the hell cant i find it in vjcsb?
practically the reason why i love my band now more.

-

year2s have left. now the band size is like 40 and now the band sound like, according to Mr Tan, a wind ensemble.

cool, a wind ensemble, we are high class.

we sighread loads of cool pieces like Elisabeth, Persis Overture.
I think we sound not bad cos we got quite a few good players around to pillar the band. haha. it has already become a year1 thing and im already looking forward to every single band prac.

=) =)

2007-06-05T08:55:00.000+08:00

okay now finally i get to settle down and blog.

even during the hols im running to school early in the morning, trying to study.
TRYING TO STUDY. it was such a bad attempt for the first week. i just cant get into my study mode. i hate studying for things that i know will not be useful in the future. it sucks.

i shall do a short summary on this past 6 months.

- Changing class for 5 times and finally 07s41 which i love.
- Forever ponning lectures (especially term2 lectures which i've not been more than 5.)
- Not doing tutorials (especially physics and econs)
- PW. not interesting, at all.
- Made loads of new good friends (especially those im hanging around with everyday, what would my life be like without you guys? (= )
- SYF (the safari solo that makes my heart skip a beat whenever i thought of it and of course, the ever so pretty and memorable Gold with Honours)
- Majestia XXII (Sway. and Third Symphony where there are some technical glitches but musicality all out to impress.)

ya i guess this should be short and sweet enough.

i guess for the first 2 terms, my main focus was just band band band band band. seriously concentrating about band stuff and starting to neglect what's thats most important, studies. Even this week im too busy to manage my studies.

my resolution: GET BACK TO STUDY.
and yes, this is what i shall do for now.

bye.

2007-06-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，
而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你，
而是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起。

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起，
而是明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心里。

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心里，
而是明明无法抵挡这股思念，
却故意掘出一道无法逾越的鸿沟，
伤害你自己。

2007-06-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

schindler's list.

i swear it will make u cry.

2007-05-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

today feels weird.

i went studying with sijia.

after awhile 2 of her friends came. one of which is from vjc. and i dint noe until i saw her foolscap, which is around 3 hours later. she's pinrui's classmate. then after awhile more friends came. then phy and kahsiong came. kahsiong noes one of the sijia's frens there. but almost everyone has seen him before but forgot when. kahsiong and phy claims that they have seen sijia before but also forgot when. it was just a mixture of groups of people.

ok i noe you dont get it but
it's just kinda weird noe. like, interconnection kinda thing.

and today's study session is HIGHLY INEFFECTIVE.
but funny.

2007-05-12T09:35:00.000+08:00

BAND NO.9
VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE

GOLD WITH HONOURS

it seems like something i have never wanted to think of. and everything just seem to pass by in a sudden blur. we have never really been much excited about SYF till the last two weeks. i guess mr tan's graph was ever so correct.

being able to play such an important role makes this year's syf so damn freaking special. Im so glad that i never flop it i wont be able to bear the consequences man. and people who were constantly behind my back (literally) supporting me, THANKS! you guys rock to the house man!

tears were shredded (especially kahsiong ZOMG) and cheers shouted out loud. haha never ever felt so passionate about band before. to think that we are actually labelled the most slack band for syf. haha i guess we are really good. :)

i hope we can go vienna next year.

i love my band life. took part in syf in p4, p6, sec4, and j1 and my bands all emerge the top bands. maha bodhi, dunman high, victoria junior college. i mean, how many people can have such a gold-with-honour chance. im proud.

2007-04-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD.
PISSED. FUCCCCCCCCCK.

and now im good, and tame. :)

today's weird. everything just seems utterly wrong when you're tired? like u see this guy with a stupid face and u just wanna punch him up? and when she just said some nonsensical stuff you cant wait to slap her hard down to the floor.

everything seems wrong.

and there's no reason behind it. just the typical mood swing.
if i can possibly turn the time to 6 hours ago, i would not have just walked away like that.

2007-04-21T19:18:00.000+08:00

20 more days, on the band room whiteboard. walking towards something so hard yet something we must achieve. i thought of things i can do. i hope everything will turn out fine.

SYF 07 has been a nightmare for many juniors.
and now its my turn to experience it.

thinking of it gives me the trembles of fear. and surges of excitement. this will be my 6th and also my last.

i still remember the first time i took part in SYF dates back to 7 years back when i was just but a puny p4. the time when alto sax was a heavy instrument. i felt nothing. it was just music which i at that point of time failed to comprehend. and miraculously, we won the 2nd band of year.

now, im feeling a totally different thing.
i pray and i hope..

2007-04-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

BAND 106: DUNMAN HIGH
SILVER

but with heads held high with pride.
it's true to say that we have underperformed today. but at least we know that we are capable of the better.
silver, is just but a name. the truth that lies behind it is all that matters.

Mistakes, are just but portals for success.

There's no need to feel sad. You've let no one down. If all these months you have given your best, we're already proud of you.

just move on.

in our heart, you will always be gold with honours.

2007-04-14T17:40:00.000+08:00

went down to dhs to listen to their final piece today.
i wish them all the best.

of cos, saw juniors like zhairui hongwen shixun.
and friends like jingwen ivy.

lol didnt know that one trip down will bring alive some real good past times.

2007-04-06T12:54:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

a survey found on pinrui's blog. HA.

2007-04-06T12:32:00.000+08:00

sick on good friday.

and im supposed to go out with the big eyes. i'm sure that i will look like a drug addict again. damn fuck.

and it kinda gets quite irritating when not all the five of us are going out. betty always have a strict control at home. wonder whats wrong with her parents. if my parents were to restrict my outings im going kill them. but they dont, so i still love them =) <3 HAHA!

if that is concern, i rather they dont give a damn.

-
just listened to james barnes with baritone sax scores in my hand. i realized there were alot of parts that i didnt get to hear it in band -.- (quite sure our balance is quite screwed up esp when eugene is not there to play. not trying to imply anything. how can 1 person support the whole section you see? =/ dhs has 3!)

sudden urge to play the btone sax for one prac and see how it will sound like. when mark and i no longer sit together to blast the alto sax1 part. current situation: alto sax is the loudest follow by tenor sax then alto2 and finally btone sax. ok maybe the btone and alto2 as soft as each other. so the pyramid balance thing is totally toppled.

i reckon only one of us at the alto1 stand is seriously enough.
-

2007-04-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

there are some memories that one will keep forever.
you're one of them. a precious one.

2007-03-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

exco.
or not?

im unsure and confused. suddenly an impulse to do something for the band which i've already been so very committed to.

im no clairvoyant. but im giving it a bet.
not.

2007-03-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

i got 1000 movies to watch. who is free? wanna have a whole week movie spree?

god damn it that rhymes.

TMNT
BEAN'S HOLIDAYS
THE MESSENGERS
MUSIC AND LYRICS

=)

-

kash and phy came over to my house yesterday evening, guess they were really bored.

ended up watching disc one of deathnote and some random scenes of step up. and 50bucks which i brought out yesterday for another purpose was totally all not-fair-at-all spent, somehow.

kinda love this house hopping thing. next week shall just go to some other people's house. someone is already suggesting =)

gain to realize that my mood swing thing is starting to like, come back again. after disappearing for a whole lot of 4+ months. i must try to suppress it for my own sake. losing friends is something that i don't wanna taste, again.

3months i have spent in vJc. oh. and now the 1st term is already over. what have i achieved over these days in school? i guess, nothing. all of them are about hanging around with most of the time band mates and maybe sometime with classmates.

my father asked me if jC life is really what i portrayed it to be, slack and everything i want. haha dream on. i just don't wanna start rolling that's all. especially when my subject tutors are all one hell'a big slackers. when the others are mugging for tests, i havent had a single one yet. cept for one econ's take home test.

and no, i'm not trying to say that it's good and cool or sth.
i rather the tests.

i swear and i promise that i will abide the band room rules. i try my best. =) it's kinda hard you noe, but oh well. try.

2007-03-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

my entire house is quiet now.
my father reading some documents
my mother newspaper and my brother homework.
suddenly, typing on this keyboard seems so loud.

went to watch CAGES with classmates.
erm.. yea that shall be my comment. i give it 1/5.
HIGHLY NOT RECOMMENDED. oh wells but if you're all so patriotic and you wanna support local films. go ahead then. =)

chunhan went high last night and became insane soon after.
and i don't wanna elaborate on mark's super retardedness. i cant stand it. HOW CAN YOU BE SO RETARDED MARK HENG.

2007-03-18T12:16:00.000+08:00

okay so this marks the end of the hols. how uninteresting, a boring sunday.

VJC is about to start real soon. as in, the real thing. time to put on specs wear pants high and start looking like a true VJC mugger, just like the rest yea? soon it will the the midyears, then the promos then the common test then what have we? a levels.

i guess the march hols is so well spent it passes by so super quicky. kinda wanna let time stop for now and slack for the rest of my life. honestly, i wont mind this kinda life. haha. i have this picture on my head without working and studying. shiok. i call it fantasizing.

back to the reality, BED ROCKS
one night in school without bed has been rather torturing. 12 hours of sleep last night is... ... beyond description (too lazy to think of any volcab here, like i can think of anything.)

friends the only thing that make me wake up early in the morning to go school. oh well, i guess i go eat lunch first. see ya!

p/s band room keys to me and kash hello.

2007-03-17T20:25:00.000+08:00

stayover in vjc is great.

sidney vera mark kash xiaojia jiawei phy and i had a wonderful chill out last night. although the dvd sucks, the campfire alike, rochor beancurd, mark's studio and insomnia has been great. pretty please let's have another stayover again. like, real soon.

now feeling woobly and tired after the 3 hours sleep last night and the whole morning of full band. finally, third symphony throughout again. 2nd time we played it and it still sounds far from the original piece.

x-tina's solo is totally IMBA. i wonder how she can play the solo so emotionally without feeling a single thing herself. she's weird. HAHA.

2007-03-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

my honey moon holidays.

one fine day dedicated to my beloved dhs band juniors. heh only able to communicate with the year4s. which means those that are one year lower than me. the rest, are turning into strangers but really, who cares?

MELINA YOUR DRUM THING IS REALLY COOL AND POWERFUL SIAHZ. i bet you're not going to read this but oh well, i was kinda surprised. Samurai is a freaking nice piece.

oh well, good luck babies.

2007-03-13T10:26:00.000+08:00

Hello.

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ya, thats about it. byebye! :)

2007-03-11T17:57:00.000+08:00

iwo jima's theme drains every single bit of my emotions.

this week has been a scare for me. almost thought that i will leave s41. lucky, i managed to get back in. or i dont think i will enjoy the next two years in victoria.

anyone can offer me a good soprano saxophone?

ok dinner time. bye.

2007-03-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

it was phy's bday yesterday! happy belated bday phy.
heh went out with phy and gang and it was totally fun =D
sushi teh was cool and i hope our big thing will come true.
it will be awesome.

TAIPAN CHILLOUT ROCKS LUH. BIG TIME.

kinda hope that time can rewind back to then when we were still tiny little red dotties. when we were like, know nothing about this world and everything is confined to just the black colour box that shows cartoon. stressless life.

not like NOW.

zzzzzzzzzz olevels, alevels, then NS, then degree, the work.
it just get worse and worse and worse and worse. feel like retaking PSLE. how fun that can be. i will be the top scholar in singapore, i hope.

not fair, i wanna go paris too. i hope i can go paris for further studies. beautiful.

2007-03-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

today will be a boring day.

everyone has their yuanxiao and my family doesnt celebrate this kinda stuff, which means that no one will be out with me.

BORED.

there's something i need to do.
that is to forget all about you too.

2007-03-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

9:45PM }}}

i hate VJC's gender's discrimination.
at least i got 2 balls.
wassup with the fucked up attitude, and the threat.

i hate lectures, tutorials.
i have to moan about this in every post time to get some life.
oh im in everyone's blacklist.
er? what wrong did i do? talk in class? how primary-school'ish.
stress and effed.

Tj seems like a better path.

9:50PM }}}

band room is a cool place to sleep, slack and study.
its already like a second home. with the people there like a family. =)

10:30PM }}}

i cross my fingers for at least a half day tml.
and im no emokid.

10:40PM }}}

i wonder how 29feb babies celebrate their bday.
only once in four years? poor thing.
tutorials still suck.

2007-02-26T22:08:00.001+08:00

i guess im already long forgotten.
hey was i even in your heart the first place?

i dont even remember how you look like anymore.

2007-02-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

emo-ing is a disease. it spreads.
and just in a split second, it strucked me. especially when im listening to james barnes' third.

i miss,
i miss lotsa people.

let the overnight highness rekindle.
not to be lost again.

oily marks appear on walls,
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

2007-01-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

i label last year my most emo year.
this year will be of great difference.

despite so, i realized people around me are becoming little emokids. haha. went blog hopping just now and to my dismay everyone's feeling so emo. ironically they are like happy-go-lucky when they're in school. lol what a sad world.

oh whatever. i don't give a damn.

anyway, im looking forward to 2weeks later. which is so utterly important to me. the release of olevel results, my birthday, oh as well as band's stj, and maybe our class's jts? oh lol this is getting more and more interesting.

our first three months have shrunk itself to er, first 1 month and 9 days. damn it why are they rushing like crazy? we got 70 more years to live! -.- but nevertheless im feeling so excited! wondering what my history's grades will turn out to be.. isit a c6? or isit a d7? wahaha this is definitely something for me to look forward to man. grrr.

2007-01-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

i wonder.
if love is true?

oh well. today is the slackest day of the week. hurray!
i reached home at 5.
slackest day.
wow.

what's wrong with people who despise muggers. and yet mug at home silently too.
they are way worse.

2007-01-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

homojalaye(leh, lei, whatever)
the rise of a new craze.

all thanks to a dude and his church friends.

life in vj is fresh. different.
imagine the condemned chinese speaking.
and the english speaking prcs.

ironic.

i await friday to experience a whole new journey of life.

2007-01-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

entering a whole new atmosphere.
i wonder what lies ahead.

i guess i will just settle in s41.
they seem like a better lot.

tired of bitching, tired of trying.
i just wanna fall flat on the ground and see stars.

why am i blogging now?
whats my opportunity cost?
sleep + homework.

lazy lazy lazy.
why is everyone mugging?

2007-01-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

happy 2007!

i always thought that school starts on the 2nd jan. i have no idea why this year isnt.

lol.

there're LOADS to be done tml. like getting my hair back to the student's image. and chilling myself out etc.

hais im not really that all eager for the school's reopen. this means the end of the no-homework holidays which only happens once in a blue moon. and also the beginning of immense stress.

argh totally sick.

oh well at least there's this orientation thing for me to look forward to. quite exciting man. like everything's still foggy ahead. cool feeling.

happy 2007!

2006-12-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

OK. the taiwan earthquake thing is really screwing my internet up.

ok chill pill chill pill.

anyway. band chalet's over. my god my previous post was christmas and now chalet's over. HOW FAST TIME FLIES. a while later and i will be with my grandchildren.

this time travelling thing is scary. ok stupid. -______-

ok today must be a good day. it didnt rain. finally. if today was band chalet how wonderful that will be.

talking about band chalet. we got ourselves drenched (all thanks to?) and effed up that i thought it bonded us.

HAHA. what a stupid thought.

and talking about effed up jinhao is damn sad cause he lost his mouthpiece, ic, creative mp4 in the rain. anyone who saw it pls give him back. pls.

so so so the chalet is all about watching movie, getting drenched, cycling, bugerkinging, pooling, bowling, getting drenched agian, lazying around, ghosting, and night talking.

omg i summarised them into one sentence im sooo cool.

k cya.

2006-12-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

MERRY X'MAS!

2006-12-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

im totally lazy to do anything today.

hello everyone today's xmas eve. (omg i just received a msg from charry she's in new zealand! wtf! i went genting??!!) oh its xmas eve and im lazying around house when its a good time for couple to hold hands.

hmmm is there a hidden meaning inside? nah you think too much.

im totally bored.

how about organizing a batch outing when you dont even noe their contact numbers. im already starting to forget the names. damn it.

27th dec before chalet. charlotte's web @ parco.

a tiny invitation for the public when no one reads this space.

im getting sick of this tiny tiny space of my blogskin i think i'm going to design another one real soon. especially when im stick with this boredom where no one is dating me out. hais im leading such a pathetic sad life on xmas eve. *whines*

my cousin at home is crying cause my brother wasnt willing to share the comp. he's a he. hmmm cool.

2006-12-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

Eminem + Akon = Smack That
= OMFG.

Look back and watch me
smack that, all on the floor
smack that, give me some more
smack that, 'till you get sore
smack that, oooh
smack that, all on the floor
smack that, give me some more
smack that, 'till you get sore
smack that, oooh

2006-12-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

oh yea im back home.

DAMN.

this genting trip sucked!

firstly, as you all noe, malaysia is raining every single second now. so you noe all the water that falls onto hot malaysia ground? it will evaporate right? so all the watervapour will float float float to cold genting. and hence condense to form tiny water droplets. so wherever you go, you get wet.

ok crap. genting is so cloudy and wet you cant play a single shit in the outdoor theme park. so the only thing you can do there is arcade, or shop, or movie, or even stay in hotel room to play bridge. oh. so i go all the way up to genting for these, when i can do this all in singapore.

DAMN.

lucky, from this trip i managed to kup around 50bucks for something nice.

ARGH. cant wait to go out. anyone free tml? gimme a call.

2006-12-17T12:34:00.000+08:00

alamak. nike sale sucks.

so NSSN is over. tomorrow im going off to genting liao. it's my erm, Nth time going. oh well who cares just go there and have fun.

everyone's going overseas after NSSN. gladys's going back to hongkong, steph going to korea, xiaojia going to japan, and i, pathetically genting.

uhehrm.

life's back to normal. zzz. im lazy to upload pictures. yada.

..pictures can be viewed there --->

anyway paris valerie, pls come online and send me more pictures.

oh and dunman high valerie, thanks for the picts and videos! >.<

2006-12-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

ytd was one hell'a high ride.

first NSSN.

my instrument leaked and one of the notes cant come out for shit. but thanks to mr tan elinor and one of the alumni it was repaired during intervals. goddamnit thanks. the concert was really nubbad i heard alot ppl laughed during the skit. (cant wait for val to show me) cool.

i love the camwhoring after the concert. everyone just randomly cling on to someone and take random pictures. the situation was so messy and fun i love it. damn i love my batch people they're cool. i dint bring any camera so i shall just wait for people to send me before i put it up.

anyway, thanks for the flowers, the cards and the presents. oh and the -.- bear in raincoat. love'em.

then, the after nssn dinner

wah i din noe the band was so bonded one whole bunch of'em (around 20, 30+ ) went to eat dinner at mac together altho it's like 10+ after the camwhoring sections and the highness.

so we just sit around and talk. eating fries already made me full. i read my cards also. was pretty sad for a moment i din have an angel. but it's okay now. :)

so everyone just talk shit for a whole hour.

finally, the overnight movie.

those who went: mark, benny, steph, vera, me, sid, pinrui, yonghan, peizhen, gladys, ee long (isit how u spell it?), conran. eh.. did i miss out anyone? :P

we were (or are we?) cheated by sidney's brother who claimed to say that plaza sing's cinderella movie starts at 1.10am but when we reached there and to our dismay, it starts at 2.25am. so everyone has to wait for it. (we aint stupid there' isnt any nice shows left)

pinrui fell asleep in a cool way. he was rather tired the whole time. i was pretty alive until the movie, almost fell asleep -.- but the show was pretty a fked up one everyone doesnt understand the whole plot. mark understands and claims that it's stupid. so i din even bother to ask.

oh, and the.. i dunno.

guess what. everyone's pissed off. we hate the midnight surcharges (1.5 X original amount) and yet there isnt any public transport at that moment. sidney and some others just cant wait for 1 1/2 and they take taxi home. the rest went to mac and wait.

did anyone tok while we were at mac? i was sleeping there.

then until 5:36. we left mac and head home. pinrui and i were so tired i dont have the energy to talk and at the weird position i am in i cant fell asleep. pinrui was sleeping throughout the whole journey i guess.

then i run home to sleep.

i was so tired the moment i lie on my bed, i already woke up. (er get it?)

i woke up 2.15.

the end

pictures. tomorrow.

bye vera. =]

2006-12-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

freaking ahbengs.

2006-12-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

*
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VJC BAND CONCERT @ VJCPT

15TH DEC (fri) 7PM AT $8

PLEASE COME !
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Please please buy tickets from me.
The songs are really nice.
The skit is really funny.
The gals are really pretty.

and most importantly...

ME.

(my concert attire w/out the tie. ignore price tags -.-)

hunk yo'

pinrui and i went shopping for this concert attire today. and guess what, we took more than an hour deciding on the size of the shirt and the type of pants to buy. and also the pattern of the bucker. (ok maybe im the one deciding them 0.0) damn it we're like some indecisive aunties. OKAY im like an indecisive aunty.

ANYWAY. Pls do come for the concert. SEEYATHERE.

2006-12-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

OHMAN TODAY IS SO TIRING!

went vj early to do the stars thing for skit. it was fun lah. everyone's getting themselves painted. jonathan's art aint as nice as mine okay damn it -_- supposedly time consuming skit project took only an hour or so to complete. everyone's helping it was cool. and i cut myself, ow, soopx soopx and i din feel the pain until i see the blood. something's terribly wrong with the sensory neurones. becoming numb cos of the boredom la must be.

and i felt super retardified by some events that happened today. DAMN.

OH. i shall go for vj sp tml. i must show them that im enthu LOL! oh well it's quite faraway tho. hmmmm.

2006-12-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

adapted from mature melina's blog.

Val thinks that guys who like girls with long hair only are very useless. I think that they are boneheads. And I mean guys who think that girls with long hair automatically transform into these beautiful beings, all because their hair decided to look longer (which to them equates sexier, more desirable and what-nots, of course) today/yesterday/some Godsent/blessed day.

These guys grow brains in their butts. If they ever did grow brains at all.

Maybe one day they will decide to make full use of their brains in their butts and come up with a quote like, There is little difference between long hair and make-up. Both of them makes a girl look prettier and turn us, men, on. The only difference is that one is natural while the other is not. And since men always claim to abhor unnatural beauty, they will support "long-hair" whole-heartedly.

Guys like long hair because girls can swish them around, right? Like in shampoo ads, right? Well I wouldn't know, of course, since my brains don't grow in my butt. But I suppose the length of the hair is all that matters... They wouldn't care less if it had shape or not, or if it was frizzy, or if it had terrible split-ends, or even if it was infested with lice. Noooo, they are blinded by the whole concept of WOW-LONG-HAIR that they believe that long hair actually makes a girl pretty.

See what I mean? Brainless. Or should I say, butt-brained?

So girls. Stop heeding the advice of men who think they are girls' best friends and leave your hair long just for the sake of the damned length. Those imbeciles.

Guys who are turned on by long hair and only long hair AND I really just mean the hair and its bloody length... You make me roll my eyes. Everytime. So go castrate yourself and save us the trouble, thank you very much, just because you really don't deserve to own a dick, much less a brain, not to mention two.

nah it's no retarded i thought it was rather funny. poor melina must have seen someone's dick erect just by the long hair.

oh anyway i think that long hair gals are pretty. GOSH i need to get a doc to check if there's a brain in my butt. it's rather big nowadays.

oh well who cares.

DISCLAIMER: THIS POST IS NOT MEANT TO BE OFFENSIVE.

2006-12-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

As you can see, i've been rather busy as of late (i cant even swim already). whatever this whatever that. but im enjoying them luh.

despite so, i bought myself a few things recently. like a inkelement red bag which the whole world hates (tearing. soopx soopx..), a couple of new shirts and samsung T9 mp4 (a freaking redcoloured ipodnano cost as much as ipodvideo wtf!). damn it my mother's broke too. im such a spendthrift.

im losing contact with classmates too. im almost forgetting them soon damn it pls don't leave me babies pls don't. -_____- ok sorry babies.

ANYWAY,,,, i gtg. tml still gotta wake up early to make stars -.- wth aint i sucha big big loser.

2006-12-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

yay vjsb is lurb lurb.

2006-11-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

anyway update on the ebay thing.

Dear E.RIC
Regretful that our sunglasses are NOT Dolce & Gabbana, BUT only DG.

so yep its kinda a fake. BUT IT SO REALLY LOOK LIKE DOLCE AND GABBANA it makes me so stitched with that stuff i think im going to buy just one of the 3 winning ones. (yes! did you realise 3!)

further more, despite that the spec cost U.S30cents, the postage cost U.S10bucks. means it will still end up to be around 30+, if i buy three i think i can just go and eat roti prata for the rest of the holidays? yep.

p/s dolce and gabbana's sunglasses costs around 10 times more.

OKAY JOB WELL DONE NOW'S ITS YOUR TURN TO HELP ME CHOOSE THANKS.

and the purple one in a couple of posts ago. thanks.

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ok change topic.

went to vjsb today.

HAHA. the skit was freaking funny, especially vera's part, she did an awesome job. TOTALLY HILARIOUS. im not elaborating on it so that you will go. and what a pity i wasnt able to perform for that scene! darn it. i hope i can wear afro hair wig and retro specs with tight shirt and pants for my scene. that will make me look like some really spastic person from the sixties and no one will recognize me -.-. too bad that will be beyond the budget.

p/s vera's leaving next year to poly. and i will be stuck in some really, really, really weird section. honestly they are very boring. vera is my source of entertainment in band.

AND holymama i must, and still must say that there's this horn guy in vjband that looks like shixun. just that he looks abit more mature, actions also abit more mature if not i don't think i can tell the difference. oh and not to forget his horning is damn pro, so say daniel and pinrui.

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im sorry ive to complain, even to myself, that recent posts are really dull. just like my life now. cooled down abit. no more wildlife no more this no more that. i find staying at home quite a pleasant feeling as of late. =D

maybe at the very most i can do now is to go tm and walk it alone. doing things alone is kinda cool. i watched casino royale alone too. no lah im not having my depression shock or whatever. it just kinda sink in as a weird weird habit of mine.

even blogging now at this time when everyone's sleeping makes me feel good. oh man i think im spastic HAHA.

enjoy the hols people. ok off.

2006-11-26T17:30:00.000+08:00

i have a tiny passio for mini coopers. (was influenced somehow to love it) help me keep it a secret k thanks. normally coopers are meant for gals. :) its small and pretty. a mini cooper for myself. think of that. cool.

hais pretty. still need a couple of years before i can own them. my first car will be cooper.

anyway.

anyone free tonight? i wanna experience some nightlife.

2006-11-26T14:28:00.000+08:00

today's sunday and amazingly, i'm at home.

ok i got my hair done today. thought it was quite nice lah. it's supposed to be lowlight brown highlight blonde. BUT. the blonde looks more like.. erm some weird shade or yellow + orange. oh should be more like a dark gold or sth. zhairui claims that it needs some time to take the effect. oh well just wait then.

i wonder if vj accepts this hair.

ok off. bye.

2006-11-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

aint it pretty. i got this for 30cents. BUT. about Ebay, i dunno how to pay despite the fact that i won the bid. hey wait. even june claims that im a noob. and she reckons its a fake so i just emailed the seller regarding it. hmmm just wait ba. nice specs relli.

2006-11-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

random: do anyone alive hate macdonalds?
well i secretly, umm not a secret nemore, do. yuck.

ytd went for job hunting. okay, i noe i already have one with a decent pay. BUT, that's only from 6pm to 10pm. i need one more job in the afternoon. yes, especially with nothing inside my laroche and many birthdays approaching, i definitely need another job.

seoul gardens, WELL ERM, the manager looks weird, speaks weird and is weird, oh he asked real weird stuff too, like err, "how are you as a friend" and "tell me about yourself". are we supposed to get this for interview i dunno you can tell me this's my first time. and the pay is so meagre it makes me wanna puke. yucking 4.50 an hour???!!!!!! WTF. i rather be a gigolo. OKAY A JOKE.

well applied for almost every single restaurant in parco too but, they need to call us back for interview. "manager not available."

BORED. i going gym later.

2006-11-22T14:27:00.000+08:00

k this will be real short going out soon.

hais im itching to go for shopping. weird, i know. there're somethings that i really need to buy. by this hols i must have these in my wardrobe.

-a black, green stripped polo tee i saw in one shop.
-a goldlion white long sleeves
-a pair of billabong jeans
-belts
-black tie to go along with white shirt
-sunglass, nice one that can help to cover some pimps.
-perhaps a couple of giodarno three quarters

argh and i think i shall do the shopping with my mom cause if so all those things will be free!!

ANYWAY, on a depressing tone, i think swimming in public pools will result in popping of pimples. will it? imagine swimming in other's pee.

argh eeeew. and i already got some of them on my face. PLEASE DO NOT PEE IN POOL THANKS.

2006-11-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE CHANGE.

i got this uncle. he was the worst of dads, not to mention the worst of husbands. he abused his wife, my aunt, physically financially and mentally (dun ask me about sex i do not know). his sons, two of them, were his outlet of anger. his family was chaotic, so was his marriage. my aunt supported the family, working with meagre pay. oh i forgot to say that he was in jail before. he drove when he was drunk, the car toppled or sth. my aunt lived a hard life then. i often overheard my grandma and mother gossiping about him. the bad stuff i mean. i hated him, for causing so much pain to someone who loved him so much. the hardship, who can understand? i noe i can't.

SO.

today i saw him. he was holding to my aunt's hand. sweet yea? saw me and asked me how's life going on. so i told him about the proceeding to jc and stuff. and yea he was there, he was there to encourage me, to tell me that things will be tough for me and that i should work hard for my future. suddenly, he transformed to someone more mature. someone whom my aunt can really depend on this time. that, in his eyes, was something i never seen before. and i saw my aunt smiling contently.

i smiled back.

people do change.

i suppose everyone deserves a second chance. =)

2006-11-21T19:27:00.001+08:00

im working now. [so called]

the whole system here is running crazy now. so there's nuts i can do. blogging, surfing net, and msning for a pay of 6bucks an hour currently.

best job ever. i noe you are jealous. :)

2006-11-21T09:49:00.000+08:00

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I,never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me will it start a fight
No, I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I,never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I, never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(let it die,I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late

-hinder. lips of an angel.

2006-11-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

today is a super healthy day :)))

feeling sian, i went swim 20 laps today 12pm to 2pm.
then meet up with peiqi, inex and yvette to blade with them from 4pm to 6pm.
whole afternoon- exercise all the way. we've came out with a pact to have extreme makeover LOLL!!! i think we're going to gym next week [super looking forward to it :)]

i love blading. I JUST SO LOVE BLADING. it makes me feel superior somehow, to just blade past noob cyclists. i noe im self consoling BUT WHO CARES I JUST LOVE IT. and i love to blade with people who can really blade. the people who went blading today can really blade [esp peiqi i bet half a ball that she's even better than me]. i love doing blade stunts although i noe little of them. anyone who wanna blade can ask me out :)

ANYWAY. here's some recent pictures on my phone.

shuai ge in cool sunglass. the hunk beside me's my dad.

awww van loves me so. she wanna, er you know.

WE CLIMBED TO THE TOP OF THE WORLD!!!!!!! everyone was so contented and satisfied and proud they dun wanna go down. me too! HAHA. [everyone showed their teeth anyway. haha]

OK. GOTTA SLEEP TML GOT IMPORTANT AUDITION GOOD LUCK TO ME!

2006-11-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

i conclude that im very emodified today.

i love this feeling tho. sadness, depression, anything negative. it makes me think alot, reflect alot. feeling happy all day long just make one's life so lowdown and boring.

oh im depressed [nothing to do with the fact that im feeling emotional] by the huge number of fats accumulating in my body. disgusted by myself. i shall go train myself everyday. trust me i sure will :) since there's nothing much to do. might as well do something meaningful for myself. LOL.

zokay i think i shall go sleep the mo? k that sounds wrong. haha. great.

2006-11-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

com'on ev'rybodeh letz shoawt out loud!

WOOOOOOLALALA!!

finally. after so much hard work it's over. time to look for a new job baby if you'll got any lobangs that has a pay of 7bucks or above pls kinda come tok to me. i dun mind being a toilet attendant in a 5star hotel, i noe that one pay 9bucks/hr, [but cannot find liao]. PLS CALL ME!!

oh well. i guess history spoils the whole mood. we supposed to topple all the tables after Os [since the hall's gonna go down already we're just trying to help LOL] BUT everyone was whining and complaining after the end of history.

too hard.

way too hard.

forget it why bother about it.

oh. today's the last last last day of band. i've pictured the worst scenerio but i think this's slightly better. nvm i can feel it already. the love's there and everything. the cryings and laughings everything's there already. i know this thing abit last minute so its okay la :) quit moaning and quit apologising for giving us a bad grad day.

it made me wonder and think about those happy moments and i think i really should thank some people for giving me them. people that stepped into my life so deep and now it's time to leave it's hard to take them out. who wanna take them out. just let them sink inside and remember them for being the best of friends forever.

i guess if i were to name all out it will be neverending. hence, special thanks to jingwen clarissa ivy who filled my boring band life with that wonderful colours. if not for you all, i guess band will never ever be that interesting, so is my life. how come it's till now then i start to regret not cherishing all of you much earlier. fate has put us together as a section. everyone of you are just so special it made me tear thinking that im leaving you people. lets not forget it ok? the piece of memory between us. woah come to think of it i sureee would miss those days where we hang around together. every single time, even bus trips to wherever had become so nostalgic to me. to thank you all here is not enough. i promise you all will always be in my mind for the rest of my life. the four of us must have been the most bonded sax batch the band will and had ever have. I DUN WAN I DUN WAN TO END EVERYTHING HERE WITH THIS SMALL PARAGRAPH. THESE 2 MONTHS BEFORE THE NEXT YEAR, LETS GO OUT EVERYDAY HAHHAHAHA :)

ARGH! WILL MISS YOU GUYS. have fun in DJC! >.<

2006-11-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

boredom is my kingdom.

b.or.ed is the word. and you can see it for yourself. the constant (and daily) updates on this web as well as the pictureless posts. the complaints of life as well as the frequent usage of bored and stress (here it comes again.)

oh well.

2 more fucking hell days

and i will be free. peiqi yvt and i were talking and talking about friday (cos friday's the day) and we suddenly became so excited about the ending of Os that we started jumping up and down like 3 balls (ok exaggerated -.-) but nevertheless i can already picture my facial expression after i complete my history seQ on friday. it will not be just balls.

having said that, there will be band phototaking on friday and im kinda looking forward to it (don't gimme that stunned and surprised face). im not crayzeh as of yet but i just wanna meet those old friends in band. sure it's been a long time. and after friday it will be longer so yeap. geezus i kinda miss mrs wong and mr ng too (OK STOP THAT FACE -______- )

somehow by typing that paragraph above, pictures and pictures of the band memory flows into that already very compressed brain of mine. the Ap sec1, then the enthu sec2 and 3, and the ultimately anti sec4 of my life surely brought alot of colours into my band life. mr tan used to say that when we grow and mature and when we started looking back to all those we have done (the anti band stuff), it will dawn upon us that it's very immature.

let's hope one day i will feel this way (maybe i haven mature yet -.- ). cos for all i know, these clique i had made the last year of my band life the most exciting and memoriable one. :)

oh about today, physics kinda cheap and easy (felt the same way for Prelims and ended up with a b4 so ERM.) ya. i shall not think that i will get an A or what but lets hope the results turn out good. miracles please do happen.

AND OH XUELING WON THE MS TEEN COMPETITION WOOOHLALA. toldya, my friend. HAHA.

2006-11-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

VOTE FOR HER. <-- click any of these words

"Save the Earth, is ours to share"
:: Chong Xueling, 16 years old, Dunman High School ::

SHE SO SHOULD WIN. COS SHE'S MY FRIEND. LOL. nah joking. just vote for her ok. tiny little effort like this will help :)

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darn it i guess i'm having the worst of my life now. stuck 12 hours a day in piano room just listening to music and studying at the same time.

DAMN IT ITS SUPER BORING. felt the sudden urge to just run wild, the sudden urge to just shake like a fucking idiot. JUST WANNA BE CRAYZEE FOR AWHILE COS ITS LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN HIGH!!!

AHHHHHHHH!

~and this is whatcha call exam stress.
oh, and pre-freedom syndrome. so near, yet so far. before that piece of freedom there's still lots for to me undergo.

and tml, amaths.

hais.

have fun.

2006-11-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

5 more effing days.

guess what i think im going to puke soon. history's a total killer. i spend near 1 whole day just to get some historical facts into that puny brain of mine. woah wonderfool.

there's no paper for me tomorrow. it's literature i think. then everything will start again. amaths, physics, chem then history. plus the stress and stuff. i feel super tensed up like now.

history olevels is basically a gamble. you might get a beautiful a1 or you might get an ugly 9. it all depends on your luck baby, unless you memorise the entire book that is. for me it's the luck part. i'm only going to read through 1/3 of the book and get myself into the battle field. risky.

so, stresssss.

P.S i just went online to watch a few clips of sytycd2 [i cant wait for every monday la] and i think im quite in love with contemporary dance. somehow it just touches me. [ok this is so random nia]

back to study.
S.I.A.N

2006-11-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

'Son when you grow up, would you be, the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?'
'Will you, defeat them, your demons, and all the non-believers, the plans that they have made?'
'Because one day I'll leave you a phantom to lead you in the summer to join the Black Parade.'

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're singing, god believe me
Your memory will carry on
You'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on!

Do or die
You'll never make me
Because I won't
You'll never take my heart
And though they try
They'll never break me
They want it all
They wanna break this heart

damn my chemical romance.
THEY NEVER FAILLLLL TO IMPRESS ME.

FUCKING NICE.

And i swear that history is so holy-damn-it torturing my pitiful ass. I SWEAR IT.
i look forward to the day i leave the examination hall SCREAMING into bryan's ears.
i'll make sure that that day will be the breast day of my effing life.
looking forward to the already planned hangouts and fun after Os! WOAHHAO!

2006-11-11T10:18:00.000+08:00

WOAHZOMG.

7 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM.

FRREEEEDDOOOOMMM WORX.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

CHIONG AHHHHH!!!~~

[err. this one additional effect only 0.0]

P.S welcome to the black parade by my chemical romance is ZUBER.

2006-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

oh i guess i failed to mention just now. i did some edition to the cool dark skin of sexyback[version1.0] so this one is kinda bright now. so hopefully it will prevent the emo-ness from surging out of my mind without much control. HA.

oh anyway. since im online now. let's blog.

today i present you lenin's world. [the picture] history is draining every single brain cell you can possibly find in my head. just to do some self revision i need to bring out erm. to the left - history SAP note book. the one standing - DHP history textbook. the one in front of the yellow water bottle - history answer key book. the one under it - SAP history textbook. and of cos, the subject of the picture [erm -.- ...] the crumpled piece of paper which is my own notes. like..

WWWTTTTFFF!!!!!

so much for history???!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

what a wonderful sacrifice for beloved history, which falls on 17th nov last day of Olevels and on the 16th there will be a bunch, i mean a WHOLE LOT, of retardates screaming their way [happily] while 30+ people will just stare at them and walk away. damn. history is a total waste of time...

like i wanna be lenin.

like i wanna be hitler.

like i wanna be that maozedong. [yuck he so fat la][ok china people HALT. just a joke only]

like i wanna have cold war.

like i wanna be a revolutionarist.

like i wanna be a historist. [oh wait is there even such word -.-]

the most i can do is be like mr chiang lor. history teacher BUUURHHHS bright future for so much information to be stored. my brain only 126 MB only hor limited memory space. i, unlike fengyi, does not have a helmet hair where the information can be stored safely without worrying that it might leak out. [once again, sorry fengyi] HA-HAHA. nor am i like peiqi, nano brain big memory space.

seems that im not cut out for history at all.

LOL. but history cant be forsaked, only humanities. so all the moanings and complainings earlier on come to a waste -.-

2006-11-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

haiyo now im really this bored. like this.

I AM SO BERY BERY BORED LA!

ok i get it im supposed to study right. emaths 2:30 pm tomorrow. but im so freakkkking sick of studying the word "STUDY" will just make my day bad bad bad. honestly i didnt even study at all today and it's erm 3:32 now? but emaths is like -.- uh-huh uh-huh? i rather go engross myself in lenin's world.

oh anyway. check this webpage out.

click this thing here ----> :)

i made one for my n70 le. wanna check it out? here. and if you clicked on it. its a justin timberlake skin. WALAO IM NOT SOME JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE FAN OK. [clarification] i just like sexy back cos it's so sexy it makes me aroused all day long [obviously, a joke.]

and therefore you should go try try and waste some time and you, like me, will be trapped in that tiny world of your own and you, like me, will forget this thing called study and you, like me, will flopped everything and at the end of the day you and i can go cry together. WOO! ok dream on im not going to flop it you can so flop it YOURSELF. -.-

oh olevel's halfway through le mwahahhaa. praticals social studies english highermt bio emaths1 FINISH LIAO. and right now, the geog ppl are taking their geog exams and im slacking here mwahahahha [i noe, short term happiness right -.- i noe.] BUT i shall make the full use of this period of time to relax... world war 1 ending tml. world war 2 begins next week. with all weird weird subject hais.

i shall start planning what to do after Os. FUN FUN FUN. few more hours to that freedom.

waiting patiently....

waiting...

waiting...

still waiting...

WALAO SO LONG!

waiting

ok im sick of waiting.

i shall go muggie puggie [yea twit twit nehxxxx] now. cya in, erm 1 week time. and i will go high yea!

2006-10-25T17:36:00.000+08:00

AIYAAA i damn irritated i think im getting sick of blogging. even this blogskin looks cock out (not i make one) LOL!!! but it just look weird right.

2006-10-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

I was gonna take the time to sit down
and write you a little letter
But I thought a song would probably be a little better
Instead of a letter
That you'd probably just shred up--yeah
I stumbled on your picture yesterday
and it made me stop and think of
How much of a waste it'd be for me
to put some ink ta, a stupid piece a paper,
I'd rather let you see how
Much I fuckin' hate you in a freestyle
You're a fuckin' coke-head slut,
I hope you fuckin' die
I hope you get to hell and Satan sticks a needle in your eye
I hate your fuckin' guts, you fuckin' slut,
I hope you die
Di-ii-ii-ii-ii-ii-ie
But please don't get me wrong,
I'm not bitter or mad
It's not that I still love you, it's not 'cause I want you back
It's just that when I think of you, it makes me wanna
gag-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-ag
What else can I do,
I haven't got a clue
Now I guess I'll just move on, I have no choice but to
But every time I think of you now,
I'll I wanna do
Is pu-uu-uu-uu-uu-uu-uke.

oh yea.

2006-10-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

the more i want it, the more it backfires on me.

im probably losing everything. i used to believe something may last forever. something just pure and simple. something not as big as love. something that makes me feel sweet inside. and now, it's all gone ba.

i shall come straight to the point and i hope everyone related read this ok?

if me asking you what happened in the function room is gonna cause such an outrage, we're no longer there. and if "LOL" and "HAHA" are all the comments you can provide me in a conversation, we're no longer there. if you people start forming groups and gossip about me behind my back, we're no longer there.

40 bucks and 80 bucks are money i spent for your birthdays without any regret. these were the only days i see a smile on your faces. a small piece of "thank you" and then poof, we are back to square one. my dad used to ask me, "what did they do for your bday?" and all i can do is to smile back at him.

if you thought that petty and ego forms one eric, you gotta think twice. how much do you know about me? how much can you understand? one by one, you all turn your backs against me. our piece of something was painted with another layer of cold dark hypocrisy.

all of you love your lives. what about mine? i've to face so much more than you people. to you life now's just fun, and love, and friends. but why am i lacking of all these? why am i lacking these little small things that can lighten up my life by alot? you can say im jealous i really am.

hey you. you brought me out of my world of isolation and led me to a stairway leading to pure happiness. now when im halfway up, you push me down to back where i was. maybe i should just thank you for bringing me so far. we used to be the best of best friends (maybe thats just what i thought) and all you can do now is to show that you cant be bothered anymore. you may think im a lousy friend. all i can do is to show a black face everyday and at the end of the day, i apologises. you thought thats all i can do. and me? i thought you understand me best. the problems i have to face as the day pass by. i thought one day you will come by my side and pat my shoulder and tell me everything's gonna be alright. i realized i was wrong. you, like the others, tear my heart apart.

and you. i just flinched on the spot when i heard about how you actually feel about me. i never thought you will be one of them. i thought after the blogowar, everything's gonna be alright. you told me you thought i had a crush on you, and what you want is to avoid. i told you there's no such thing and i thought it will be okay after that. how can 4 years of friendship be broken by just a small misunderstanding? well thats what i thought. maybe thats not what you think. i do not know. when were the last time we go study and take neoprints together? do you still remember? its on fateful mother's day. i miss it. that point of time there isnt any barrier. but now, i supposed we're nothing after all.

friends come and go? i thought those were just stupid. people who don't treasure anything. but now? it seems to dawn upon me that this is a reality. no no no i do not wish for anything like this to happen. it's gonna be painful its gonna hurt. tell me what i can do? i will do it for you.

how much do you know me?

and how much can you understand?

i admit most of the time it was my fault. im born to be who i am. you see eric hanging around with gals 24/07. you think he wants it? you think FLIRTING is all he wants and all he needs? you're wrong. he never wants it. NEVER. and just because of that, there were people who start hurting me with their immaturity. if breaking me up further is all they want, then congratulations, you have succeeded.

everyday i experience things that torture me. i can remember almost what everyone says about me. and everytime they say so, it hurts me. and what can i do? all i can just do is to smile back at them. no one really cares about me. im just a source of entertainment. niaoing me and pissing me off is everything they want, everything they need. and if doing so makes them happier, just let them be.

i never want it to be this way. the society's moulding me to become something i never want to be. something very fake. i thought there will be some people out who will always be there for me. i thought friendship was real. and now, everyone's leaving. no one's standing by my side. maybe all i can say now is good bye.

the world claims that god is fair.

tell me how fair is He?

2006-10-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

Nobody gonna love me better
I gonna stickwitu forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how to appreciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu

nice song. i didnt even know its pussycatdolls who sang this. its so unpussycatdollish. haha. no more school from now on. next week the whole thing starts. i think im just gonna die and fucking die.

not prepared. i dun have the activation energy to start all these things.

2006-10-13T01:46:00.000+08:00

HAIS.

2006-10-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

Chasing down every temporary high says:
what dyou call a hesitant person who can see!

LOS[ER IC]ON says:
dunno wad

Chasing down every temporary high says:
TELL YOU

Chasing down every temporary high says:
ERRRR (hesistant)

Chasing down every temporary high says:
I SEE!

thats me -_-

some people are just weird.
DAMNNN weird.

you know what? i labelled myself a loser icon. from now on i restrict myself and DO IT YOUR WAY. this is when i DONT EVEN KNOW YOU ALL FUCKERS. i know im wrong but your jealousy had just breed very terrible hatred. and you think "fucking eric" is the right way of dealing things? nah you are wrong. it is childish. at the very end, its THE TRUST a couple ought to have and if you're just angry cos im only TOKING to your spouse. you're already lacking it. im not questioning your love and relationship for the other but you should just use your brain and fucking thinkkk. and guess what. i dont even know you. im stil compromising.

2006-10-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

who doesnt love SEXY BACK my gosh the song is totally cool lah. although justin timberlake sounds super high in the song -.- ok i shall not comment further.

hmmmm it has been very long right. nothing is okay now. my l1r5 is 13 (considerably lousy but expected) and i will try appealing into vjc through band. and band band band. everything about me is band. next year im ready to celebrate my 10 year anniversary with band.

i got no pictures to upload now cos i lend some other people my cable. regretting cos because of this i cant even get to use it for myself. this sacrifice is assy.

everyone is loving their lives cause EOYs are over. im not piahing for olevels cause im under their influence too. movies movies. believe it or not i watched like 3 movies in 3 days. stay alive (sucks), wtc and rob-b-hood. rob-b-hood uber nice.

i dunno what to say. i supposed people around me or whom i am close to all know that im in a serious depression state. if you dunno you're not my friend. ok that's a joke -.- hahaha. everything's very stressful now i cant stand it.

im losing everything.

hmmm i think i really gotta get my ass into some chemistry. so well.. i shall go mug now yea?

2006-09-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

PARIS

PARIS = LOVE.

one day i will fly to paris and walk that street of paris. one day i will fly to paris and just buy myself a cup of coffee and just sit in a coffeehouse on the streets of paris reading a book and looking at the beautiful paris.

i just saw this show featuring a couple on their honehmoon to paris and OHMYHOLYGRAIL paris is just so ohwoah.

ARGH IM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD THE PICTURES U JUST GO SEE SEE IN THEIR WEBBIE YOURSELF LAH OK. HERE.

OH YEA LETS NOT FORGET HER.

PARISSSSS HILTONNNNN WOOOOTS.

ok joking niah i noe she's a slut -.-

2006-09-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

HEYO. i spend the whole day at home today.like that's my life already.

was watching so you think you can dance season 2, yea they are just like..SO FUCKING HAWT!

im so amazed. like they danced sexy back. 41 seconds and thats enough to make my mouth so WIDE OPEN wanting for more. its just like a kissing a chiobu! oh man.

oh besides watching that. lets see.. oh i designed a blogskin. since the world likes lesbianism now (brhh..) i made one for them. YO WORLD I MAKE LESBIAN SKIN U MUST MAKE ME THE SKIN OF THE DAY. and.. if lesbian does INTEREST you too. here's the link.

http://www.blogskins.com/info/110476

oh man u noe wad. jingwen clarissa and valerie din buy me souveniers. [i can hear some awwwws] saddening huh. i almost cried. ok joking -_- im not sucha bitch. hahaha. but the thing is IVY BOUGHT FOR ME. im like honestly touched yea? touched as in that emotion thing not the younoewadpetting? hahahaha. yea see those unnoticed people ought to be noticed. ivy is zur babe for today. :D thanks ivy.

to people whom i dun usually look at: I LOVE YOU LOADS MUACKS MUACKS.

2006-09-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

OH WELL THIRD TIME......

and so we were bored. sleeping at 3 last night spending like 2 hours talking to kaikeng kinda tear me down today. tired. but oh well, time to hear some from my ole frend huh. waking up at 9 for DOTA proves that i've changed some. however like the usual me i cant indulge myself in stuff like battlefield. only a few know but i actually suffer some brain thing and playing that will cause utter headache.

off we went to fetch best friends coming back from china. jingwen valerie clarissa woah zomg they seriously look more chinaly cultured now? haha. pretteh gals yea? but sad to say. we went all the way there. just to say HI to them. yet in the end, they went home leaving us stranded in airport.

so we are bored. called up melina and finally the night starts getting much interesting. I WATCHED THAT EFFING BRITTANY SNOW SHOW LIKE 3RD TIME. OH MY HOLY MAMA I MUST BE REALLY MAD. but oh well. they havent watched it before so nice eric sacrified. let's not forget that we finished pasta mania-ing in like 5 mins. oh well we must be a pasta maniac. label us.

ok the night wasnt that interesting after all. but oh well...

least that's kinda better than studehing yea?

2006-09-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

ERIC believes that OVERDOSE of the E-O-Ys stress medicine do give you a very negative impact. People who get too stress up will have signs of being kinda retarded and have a seriously weird sense of humour. To prove his point..

St. Elsewhere says:
no, its just funny
St. Elsewhere says:
and its not funny!
St. Elsewhere says:
YOU have a weird sense of humour

can someone spot something really wrong going on in these three lines? oh was she the one or i really do have a weird sens of humour? anyone who luffed after reading this pls TELL ME STRAIGHT AWAY. i want to know if im abnormal.

SEXAY[E]RIC says:
-_______________-
St. Elsewhere says:
that, is a frog flattened by a humongous rollerrr
St. Elsewhere says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

Hais... see what exam stress can do? poor thing poor zhixin and others who burnt their brain cells just to not get retained. ok not meant to be niao -.- but good luck people I STILL HAVE AN EFFING OLEVELS?????!!!

2006-09-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

ok im at a weirrrd place. and im feeling bored. (maybe slacking and rotting dont' relli rock that much huh) hahaha.

i think skins from SOTD suck. especially today's. LESBIAN? what? red? EH? pills??! huh??! so whats' the point of everything? huh? so what's so effing nice about that??? ok maybe im jealous LOL. fuck i gave myself away. ok never mind. but my skins are relli nice what. bleahs. T_T

did i mention that i watched john tucker TWICE??! oh hell once with 4Cguys and the other time with cousins. i think im kinda crazy but cant choose right. how about going out with 2 cliques of people where in there consist people under 16 and there are 4shows available with only 1 that is PG?? miami vice. banquet. huanted apartment. all NC16. o_O

burrrh i bored.

2006-09-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

oh man im having so much fun now. even when im at home.

the feeling of just lying and slacking around without doing a single shit still kinda rocks the shitass out of me. so much better than the days when i have to wake up early and start worrying about prelims and blahblahblah.

oh. this skin is new. just made it. (really like to hear some feedback yea) this blog is new too. dun anyhow link me. cos i realized something. people who are like out of my world links me too. some retarded shitass.

well. i've been the same ole eric lahs. just that was mugging too much for my prelims and was having some depression so deleted my blog w/out thinking much. sorry. well at least i prefer the new add here yea? haha.

sexayERIC

way HAWT.
yea back to blogosphere.

2006-09-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

ok first time i'm inducing some simplicity into a blogskin. yea i made this blah blah blah. and good news MY BLOG HAS REVIVED!!! oh well prelims have ended din it? so its time to have some fun yo.